more contemplations.

so i was at mcnair's open mic. and honestly, i was really disappointed. there were more shitty acts than truly good ones. but there were a couple that stood out.

the first one was jason and his sister performing realize by colbie caillat.
if you just realize what i just realized,
that we'd be perfect for each other
and we'll never find another.
just realize what i just realized,
we'd never have to wonder
if we missed out on each other now.
sure. when this song came on, first thing that came to my mind was that this doesn't have to apply to just lovers. it can also apply to friends! right? meh, maybe. but it was my sad excuse for sending lyrics to someone i really cared about whom i knew would never reciprocate the feelings. that's what i realized. keep on keepin' on, my motto for forever.

i also heard this song sitting next to a girl i really cared about all through my senior year of high school. i picked her up from RU-N a couple of hours before, and i have to say the prospect of us never left my mind. but she started telling me about this guy she was seeing. you know, i was really happy for her, but i got kinda jealous. like we're mad close. and like, i always thought i'd have a chance. of course, i was wrong. then the song came on, and i looked at her.

AHH before i forget! she mentioned something that TOTALLY makes sense: labels ruin everything. that's why she and the guy she's seeing aren't boyfriend-girlfriend! they know they dig each other. that's enough for them. that's really cute. and she's right, with the label comes pressure. and other things.

but back to what i was saying before. i was also a bit disappointed in her, because she had always said that she'd lay off the guys for a while, if you know what i mean. like, relationships weren't her thing for a long time. and thats why i guess i didn't try harder. but then here she is now, head over heels for this seemingly perfect guy. and i don't know, that had the slightest chance of being me. oh well.

ANYWAY. second song was almost lover by a fine frenzy, sung by my good friend sarah and played on the piano by my other good friend candace.
goodbye, my almost lover.
goodbye, my hopeless dream.
i'm trying not to think about you;
can't you just let me be?
this song reminded me about the person i liked for the whole spring semester. i mean, i think i'm close to over her now. but for a long time, those lyrics were exactly my feelings towards her. lol i'm just glad i got over it, haha.

the one song that probably made the most impact on me was a medley that candace played later. it was a medley of yiruma songs... river flows in you and kiss the rain. these songs just leave you at peace whenever you hear them; definitely the perfect anti-stress songs out there. give them a listen if you have the time.

until later, fools. ;]