shocked.

i had so much respect for you and him. SO MUCH. thats probably why i never told you how i felt for you, i didnt want to ruin what you and him have.

but really, use a room that neither you nor him lives in? he has his own dorm! you HAD to intrude on a person in a room that belongs to neither of you? really? don't you know how to take care of privileges granted to you? couldn't you two have just used his room for your giggling and kissing. damn. i dont blame that person for blasting you.

i really thought you were better than this. i told my own best friend that you were the BEST on this earth. because i thought you were caring. i thought you knew what respect was. i thought you were the good girl. and thats why i liked you. SO MUCH. now all that i thought about you is thrown out the window.

i may be overreacting on something that someone told me. i didn't hear it from you. but really, if everyone said it cause they were there then damn.

i'll still be friendly around you. and quite frankly, i dont think you'd even give a damn if i said i liked you. but that's okay now cause i lost a lot of my respect for you. not everything, but a lot.



i wish humans were asexual and heartless. really. half the world's problems would be solved.
until they find out how to take out our souls and let us reproduce on our own, i'll soldier on. i hate this whole relationship thing.

yes, i'm bitter. very bitter. is this karma for my stupidity five years ago? if so, thanks. thanks a lot. because of karma, i'm never going to find someone. ever again. might as well just let my parents arrange something, like the typical asian stereotype. marry someone with money. cause really, love sucks.

(and btw. whoever invented the thought of love, i hope your carcass is rotting in hell, being eaten by dogs who shit your remains out just to eat it again.)