LOL.

i promised myself that i'd do this one day - that i'd make a post just out of lyrics.

so...
showstopper, you are a jaw-dropper; when i see you in the lights, you make everything alright. but my heart shakes along with my hands. cause [you're] all that i see, and [you're] all that i need, and i'm out of my league once again. but i feel like i need you so that we can live happily too; i just want you. cause you're the one who makes me see...

and, like i want to but i can't help it, i love the way you feel. just kinda stuck between my fantasy and what is real. i need it when i want it; i want it when i don't. tell myself i'll stop every day knowing that i won't. i got a problem and i don't know what to do about it. even if i did i don't know if i would quit, but i doubt it. i'm taken by the thought of you... and i know this much is true, that baby you have become my addiction. i'm so strung out on you, i can barely move but i like it, and it's all because of you... my life has changed, thank you for the love and the joy you bring. and because of you, i feel no shame; i'll tell the world, it's because of you. the magic in your eyes, true love i can't deny. when you hold me, i just lose control. and i want you to know, that i'm never letting go. you mean so much to me, i want the world to see it's because of you... so sprung out, ain't no doubt.

LOL i love the last paragraph. forreal forreal. hahahaha!

so yeah, last night was just a momentary relapse. but i don't think it's come on at all today so i'm good. still on that 'keep on keepin' on' attitude, and i think it'll do me good. so what if i see her during both summer sessions? i don't care, it's whatever. i'll just fulfill that one promise i made her a long time ago and then that's that; i don't owe her anything after that. she can go dilly-dallying with her boytoy all she wants. cause i (want to be) done with that. i'm through with her.

heartache, heartache, i just have so much; a simple love with a complex touch. there is nothing you can say or do. i just called to let you know i'm through with you.

maroon 5 is awesome.

anyway, i've gotten really excited over summer classes the past few hours cause biff told me she might do them too. and not only that, we might be in the same class! it would be really cool to actually have a class with her. cause like we can do homework together and stuff. idk, i always used to think that doing homework together was cool. and we can study together and stuff... yeah. hahaha but something tells me it's not gonna come through =/ i'm hoping though!

and maybe a summer job is in my future. within the next couple of days i'm gonna go to barnes & noble in hoboken to inquire about a job. i really need one; there's so many things i wanna buy! (see the LISTS blog from may 11.) and yeah, gas for the X5 is more than i bargained for. =/ but i love my maria lena!

random songs keep on popping into my head...
you can't hurry love; you just have to wait. they said love don't come easy, it's a game of give and take...

hmmm... so this week is going to be very busy. not only does summer class start, i'm going to mcnair on tuesday. and i really need to step up the practicing for saturday, when james and i have to play music for mae's mom's healing mass. i love the songs that we've chosen so far, though =) ANYWAY. and i'm going to the epik high fan meet thingy on thursday. hahaha yeaah. weird, i guess.

i think this needs to end or else i'll be blabbering about the most random shit. LOL
until next time ;]