starting to lose it.

i don't wanna fuck it up. i don't wanna fuck anything up.

rude awakening: college is HARD.

whatever. i'll deal. i can raise those grades up anyway. i always have help, too. oh well...

i absolutely hate it when people are mad at me. i want to be okay with everyone. but sometimes the things i do, although they mean well, hurt people. it took me a long time to realize that. but now i'm sorry for it. i hope forgiveness comes soon, because it hurts. i already did all i can do... it's up to the other person whether to take me back in or not. i hope the person takes me back in though...

i found the one true person at stevens with whom i can connect. in the mere span of a month we went from not knowing each other to the best of friends. i love her, because she completes me. in a brother-sister kind of way. =)

and i started talking to a long lost friend. that was a big sigh of relief. turns out she didn't hate me or anything; we just lost touch. i guess that's good.

i guess for every good thing to happen, there needs to be a bad thing to balance it out. so two REALLY good things get balanced by two REALLY bad things. it's all about balance, i guess. but i'll learn from my mistakes. i'll be a better person. i won't meddle in anyone else's affairs. i'll do me.

until next time.